Wednesday, September 23, 2009

One good thing...

Tuesday I had a BUMMER post about all the shitty thing that happened with my year. The Last item was breaking up w/ my girlfriend. Its been a REAL tough week. BRUTAL. Tons of crying, not a lot of sleep. Constant nervousness and lots of nausea. The reason why I feel all of this? I love her. She has been the SINGLE greatest thing about this year. She is amazing. Beautiful, sexy, and really strong willed. She has probably the best heart I have ever encountered in a woman, or any human in general. She never puts her self first. EVER. The thing I will be the most grateful for is how much she helped me during this year. Of all the BS that happened, she was ALWAYS THERE. Either to bitch at to clear my head or a shoulder to cry on. Her smile brightened my day. Its the little things ill miss the most. Cuddling on the couch watching a movie, her sweet kisses, her gentle touch, her beautiful and soft lips, her hypnotizing eyes, and her amazingly caring nature. The breakup happened, and I wont get into personal relationship details on here, but it was my fault (Fuck no I didn't cheat). That's why this is so damn hard. It's bad enough that I lost her. To have it be because of something I did, makes it 10 times worse. No 100 times worse. I have ALWAYS treated her well, I told her Id always be there for her and that Id do whatever I can to make her happy. I let her down, which crushes me. We will always be friends. I know people ALWAYS say that. But I have no doubts in this case. She IS my best friend. She knows all my deepest darkest secrets. I can tell her anything. There will be a bit of an adjustment period of course, but in my heart I know we will be friends w/ her forever. 

9 comments:

Princess Andy said...

oh bobby, i am so sorry for your bad turn:(

going through a divorce is very difficult, and then trying to maintain a relationship on top of it is near to impossible.

i know this first hand.

i have been with the boyfriend for over 4 years, we had been friends before and started dating exclusively shortly after my separation.

there have been countless occasions where i didn't think our relationship was going to work...i'm just aiming for happy!

it's hard, and i hope for you clarity and happiness. try and focus on making yourself content and peaceful. others will see that and be drawn to you like white on rice;)

love,

andrea

Bobby G said...

Thanks Andy! Me and her made HUGE STRIDES last night. We are now making the friend move! Im excited about the future!

Tracy said...

Big hugs Bobby!!! I'm glad you are able to see the positive that she brought into your life.

Best of luck!!

Sheri said...

I'm sorry to hear about the bad news :( Hopefully you can remain friends and find someone else soon. ::hugs!::

Sarah said...

I had no idea BG. That sucks, believe me, I have had my share of heartbreak...what sucks is that time is your only true friend in situations like this. I hope you find some way to get through this with minimal damage...HUGS!

Yaya said...

(((Hugs)))
I hope the friendship works.

Optimistic Pessimist said...

sending you lots of hugs bobby g. sorry you're so sad. i know i keep saying it but i will try to talk to you tomorrow. things have been so freaking busy but I will definitely try to make time.

Lee said...

*snuggles* I'm so sorry that that happened. You always had such great things to say about her. I really hope things will pick up for you.

Aimeepalooza said...

sorry to hear Bobby!