Thursday, November 5, 2009

The Long and Winding Road..




Recovering from this event is gonna be a long road. I am so grateful for my amazing friends and support during this time! I'm looking into therapy because I think it'll help me. I've heard nothing but good things from people on how it helped them cope. I'm doing pretty good. As good as can be expected. My day to day isn't too affected anymore, but the nights are rough. Also random shit reminds me of her, so getting through this initial stage is pretty tough. I loved her a lot, but also knew we couldn't be together. I feel if we WERE still together, it would've been so much harder. All the unanswered relationship questions. Her friendship was so important to me though. She was always my rock. During my divorce and the stuff around that time, she was always there. She gave amazing advice and she was so smart! She is surely missed. 

I've decided to do credit relief. After my house sold, as a short sale, my credit went from 740 to 580. OUCH! Well since my credit was so fucked I didn't see a problem w doing debt relief now. My old problem with it was that it'd fuck my credit up. NOW I don't care, cause its already bad. What happens is instead of pay $480 a mo in CC minimums. I pay $269 not to the card co, but to me in a savings account in my name. What this does is it allows me to save some money to negotiate a settlement w said CC co. I owed a total of $16K, it'll be settled for around $8K. Ill have it paid in JUST about 3 years. WHICH IS AMAZING! I'm looking forward to debt free living! 

In happy news! I got my free 16GB ipod nano from Apple a few weeks ago! 


I've been jammin out to songs at work! I love Pandora, but it plays the same songs all day and it costs $.99 after 40 hrs. These are MY SONGS! I own them, I love them, it ROCKS! never knew how much I missed my ipod! 

Ok folks! Thanks for all the wishes last night! Love you bloggies!!!!!!!!



6 comments:

Princess Andy said...

wow, bobbie...haven't seen you in some time.

that is tough shit, i'm really sorry.

keep picking yourself up, live your one life as best and happy as you can:)

love and kindness to you,

andrea

Tracy said...

hugs coming your way!

Sarah said...

I filed Bankruptcy about 4 years ago. It hurt my credit but not much more than it already was. My mom, the realtor, is the one that told me to do it. Since then I have been approved for two credit cards and my car lease. So, even with filing THAT it gets better pretty quickly, not like it was in the 80's. And no, I don't use the cards often, I learned, but it's nice to know I am building credit back up :) Hang in there BG!

Bee and Rose said...

My sweet, sweet friend...I am so very sorry for your loss...I am sending you lots of healing energy, prayers and warm {{hugs}}...If there's anything I can do to help, I'm here for you....

Sheri said...

Welcome back and write when you can I'm sure everyone understands what you're going through. ::hugs::

Yaya said...

I've been thinking of you....